no sunlight

Today is my long day at school. I am here from 830am until 10pm - hence the blog title - I will see no sunlight today. Yes, there are breaks, and I have to bus to a different school for 7.. however, all of my breaks are spent pre-learning what I am going to be doing in my stats class that night due to the lack of teaching ability of a specific stats teacher. I can give her a slight break, seeing as how she can barely speak eeeengleesh. However, lets get real, when a teacher spends the entire night telling you how she has 40 hours to teach you what you would normally have 80, and she doesn't think we will pass the final so she's giving us bonus marks throughout for doing homework .. it doesn't instil much confidence in the, already stressed about a stupid stats class, student.

Before I turn this blog into a rant about statistics, I thought I would change the subject instead to a rant about my research and communities classes that I will reluctantly be attending. Research is probably one of the most dry classes I have ever had to sit through, and in communities I learn things like "A community health nurse is defined as: a nurse who works in the communities" and then basically fail the midterm. aka - the teacher sucks.

In blogs you're supposed to talk about your life. I hate that school is my life. I cannot wait until december, then I will be free from school - only for 2 years though, then back to get my nurse practitioner. I'm excited for a break though, and to start working full-time and not be so stressed about money. In december, everything I have been working towards will no longer be a goal, but a reality. That's scary and exciting at the same time. It's hard to believe that in 9 short months I will be a grad nurse, and a few after that a Registered Nurse (as long as I pass my licensure). I feel like such an adult. I'm excited for my life to start. I also hate that I currently have a life full of waiting. Waiting for the weekends to see Desmond; waiting for the summer, for this semester to be over, for a time when I can go visit my family, for a time when money will actually be in my bank account, for my degree to be finished.. the list goes on. I know I'm living my life, but it feels like it hasn't started yet, and I'm stuck waiting.

Holy sinister. I sound so miserable. I am at an exciting place right now though, as weird as that is. So much to look forward to - and so much good in my life at the moment. One of those good things is the upcoming finale of the Bachelor. Monday night cannot come soon enough - another thing I am waiting for. Why am I so obsessed with this unrealistic, fantasy of a show? Um, because every girl loves a little romance, that's why. Like everyone else in the entire world, I want Emily to win. She better win .. no one can break that girls heart, she's too nice. Yes, I'm way too obsessed with the Bachelor, and yes, I do not care if you think its lame, or anything else negative. It's kind of like my love of Harry Potter, but not as strong. I don't even want to open discussion on Harry Potter, that would be way to painful for most people. But seriously, watch the finale on Monday, you will not be disappointed .. I might be, if he doesn't pick Em (haha, we're so close I can call her by her nickname... fact).

So, like I said at the beginning of the post - I will see no sunlight today. Which is not good for a body as pale as mine. I really want the sun to come back. Not only is it warmer, but I won't be as much of a ghost. Put me in a bathing suit right now, and I'm seriously blinding. I also refuse to go in a tanning bed. So, everyone around me just has to deal with the whiteness until summer. Maybe I'll just win the lottery and move to somewhere warm... a girl can dream right?